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2009-09-10T23:00:00.004+08:00

i'm trying very hard not to get pissed right now because,
i officially cant communicate with the mentally challenged you.

these really shows me how come we didnt work out in the first place.
and i dont know how come we'll go back to being on each other's msn in the first place.
and yeah, you're right, i have not change for i'm still the same person that's forever on top of you.

sucks to be you, really.

on the other hand, i hope for all the luck in the world for my next few job interviews.

2009-07-01T02:18:00.003+08:00

this post is all about my rantings of buying street fighter iv and my dilemma.

i finally decided to ship street fighter iv for the pc from the capcom online store instead of buying it in singapore. why? because capcom store in the US have a bundled copy with the controller.

street fighter iv in singapore = 43SGD
street fighter iv from capcom store = 74.12USD which is = 103SGD

and thats not all.

buy in singapore = july 2 (one more day away!)
wait for the bloody capcom store to ship = 2-4 weeks

i initially wanted to get a copy of the game and just make do with any bloody cheap controller i can get my hands on out there but in the end i still give in to the bundled copy from the US.

for people who do games, controller is very important. plus this fucking controller retail for 40USD and is always out of stock everywhere. and it got rave reviews all over the internet. plus its fucking chio. its RYU for fuck's sake.

spending so much for a game is really abit wtf. but its okay. its limited edition and i seldom buy pc games anyway. and this should be able to last me for quite some time. plus it got free online plays.

i need to fucking wait sibeh long for this to arrive at my doorstep. im amazed that at our age of such high technology advances, shipping services still take so fucking long. believe me, paying for something for 100 plus and waiting for 3 fucking weeks is fucking ridiculous. but what to do!

blame capcom.

2009-06-19T22:42:00.002+08:00

microecons was a bitch. but no matter what, its mudada. once again all of us cleared everything. to think that someone said that we cant make it without her. well, we show you. semester after semester. and it doesnt stop here. it will keep on carry on. on and on. until you know we can make it without you. :)

lady gaga concert in august. woot. going with few of my friends. i cant wait to see her live after i missed out her singtel amped showcase. bleh.

nothing much to update.

2009-06-03T04:00:00.002+08:00

as per like any other previous semester, I still cant cope with the newfound freedom of waking up only to found out that I need not mug anymore. it should be a big yay really. only to realise that baby's working on her ntu yearly break. gosh. shes only starting her year 2 in august when my sem 5 is coming to an end.

plus I dont know what to expect on the day of the results. i mean i got alot of confident in otqm but econs and finance, both should be passable. well, at least that's what I hope for.

gonna be working 2 jobs this holiday. earn some extra cash. and ippt is at the end of this month. gonna go on a diet and jog like no tomorrow. eh well, nothing's much. but if anyone out there who into gaming, well theres monster hunter unite coming out end of june for the psp and the much anticipated street fighter 4 for the pc platform which is coming out early july. seriously, life is getting better. only that i should stop yakking at baby out of the nowhere. yeah she knows and I know that I got a fiery temper. will change for the better.

2009-05-30T20:46:00.001+08:00

WAHAHAHAHA.

econs was surprisingly easier than i thought. gonna thank stars and co. for all their help. everything really only started to materialize this morning. and so my worries yesterday was for nothing. i cant think of any reason how i would fail today's paper when i know how to do at leasy half of it.

and so i say, 2 down, final one left to go.

2009-05-21T21:21:00.002+08:00

exams is just around the corner.
neglected my blog far too long.
im still alive, just that too much things had happened recently.
shall be back to blog after exams.

2009-04-25T01:52:00.003+08:00

i really really should be sleeping now. been sleeping really late every single night since forever. and i really dislike afternoon classes. i shall at least touch on my om ca before i go sleep seeing as i got the wedding thing coming. this week and the next is gonna be hell week. neverending projects.

found out that all the dms classes in sem 5 will get split up into 2 and that shocked and saddened me. what shall we do if we got splitted. school would be so so sian. but thankfully we also found out that we'll still be together no matter what. seriously, what's the point of splitting up the class in sem 5?

very much into left4dead and restaurant city now. i know the latter is quite lame but its facebook what do people expects? and left 4 dead is just fucking owning. this first game that really scare the daylight outta me with those agile walking dead, swiping at any humans who are sighted by them. and so a hero like me is suppose to gang up with 3 other heroes to whoop their fucking asses. i love killing zombies. wahaha. this is such a random post.

feel lonely nowadays when shes having her exams..

2009-04-14T23:24:00.002+08:00

frustrated about everything.
money, projects and everything else. and why is the night so friggin hot.
i figure a cold shower might do me good now.

2009-04-13T00:44:00.003+08:00

i just feel like sprouting everything im unhappy about here right now. if not whats the point of blogging, right?

just finished up econs projects with a few friends and econs really is the shit. its one of the worse modules ever. and im contemplating whether i should carry on with going on to UOL for my econs degree after my diploma. plus my part isnt exactly easy to do.

i just came across a certain friend's blog of mine whom isnt really well-liked by me or another one for that matter. his blog consist of his stupid school shit and his really random life like fishing, or making some stupid pork and supper at clementi etc. gosh. just like stars i totally will never do those, he can jolly well go eat the whatever breaded pork for all i care too.

and i really want to say i dont care anymore because what im doing isnt being appreciated at all and im just some calefair, well it stinks and im really not going to care, but then a few hours later i will feel really bad there i am, eating my own words just like the song by p!nk 'please dont leave me'. the feeling is exactly the same shit man. why is it to hard to be hard-hearted to someone whom you are really close with. and now i really dont care if that person see this or not but im just really unhappy and really really angry and irritated at times. the split personalities is really getting on my nerves. why cant we be just like normal good friends anymore. this is ridiculous. why cant things be like in the past. your this new attitude towards everything now is not making anyone happy at all. and i dont know whether you are happy or not. because i feel for myself and you as a friend and i really hope that things would change for the better i really do. as harsh as i might sound and act i really hope that as your friend, i wan to see you standing back up again. and yes i whine and complain like a bitch but thats because im really fucking unhappy. you can say that im not understanding and yes, i dont know how you feel in your situation right now but you have so many friends around you that you can confide in and talk to. might not be me and lie if i say im not unhappy but at least if you talk to other friends you might just feel better. it sucks seeing you like these now. friends around you want to see you being back to yourself.

and i also want to whine because of how stale dota is now, plus all my can-talk-cock friends is all happily sleeping now or disappear offline to somewhere. and games in my computer is all getting stale. why cant the game left 4 dead be as easier to download and install. well i haven try but i just get sick of fellow downloaders whining away at how they cant play the game blah blah. and i just dont feel like trying at all.

im totally skipping school tomorrow because i want to spend time with my baby. and anyway school for me is kinda boring already. i guess im sick of sitting through 3 hours of lecture doing nothing productive except the usual bonding session my clique would do. plus the other projects are piling up and i just dont feel like doing at all. today spent the day doing econs and enough is enough. the only good thing today is the money that my parent just passed me.

i really should be sleeping now. but i know i cant sleep. and damn my parent's room tv just broke down and they happily shifted my tv to their room, i dont know how long is this arrangement gonna last because i totally need a tv in my room, regardless of how often the tv is being used by me. i just dont care.

being a student really sucks because you have all the time in the world as compare to working adults but the thing that student are lacking now is spending power, you know, money money money? yeah right. having all the time in the world yet without spending power is meaningless. theres so much things to be bought and shop and dine but there's aint nothing i can do with the lots atime on my hands right now. ok i dont really have time because of the projects but i cant be bother. what the hell is wrong with the school anyway. schooling for jsut 2 weeks and projects deadline is coming to us so close. it sucks.

ok. i think i feel a little bit better. knowing that i let shit out and i just fill my blog with 1 more whiny post. i am feeling so much better.

and by the wayone of my friend shiao an came up with this quote herself - 人们相遇是为了说"再见", 不管你愿不愿意... basically in english it means, people meet anyone just to say goodbye ultimately. isnt it true? how true because im totally feeling it now. im not going to go voer my post because i know im going to have alot of typos and grammatic mistakes. too long to spell proof anyway.

2009-04-12T13:04:00.001+08:00

Like the way we were before,
and I wanna know if we can go back to the days when we was close,
because sometimes I think I'm solo.

2009-04-11T02:49:00.002+08:00

i really should be sleeping now. today's good friday but it seems just like any other ordinary day for me. spent the whole day doing nothing. with that very severe headache i got from last night clubbing at arena. my 2nd time at the arena for meihui's birthday. was already not intending to go but since the clique is going and dear meihui just want us all to be there so i tagged alone. didnt regret going though. drank alot and had lotsa fun and i did not get drunk. first time not getting drunk while clubbing. so baby dont worry too much okie.

what's sian is that i still got school tomorrow. finance class. i think its the third lecture tml but still i dunno how the lecturer look like. i didnt attend so many class already and its just the 2nd week of school only. i really got to do something for my projects man. nothing is being done. am looking forward to see my tp pals tomorrow after school after so long.

2009-04-10T13:58:00.002+08:00

i've learned that i cannot do anything if the other party dont want to. it takes 2 hands to clap.
i've learned that i cannot ignore what is happening. i can only take things in my stride and accept it.
i've learned that i should focus my time more on studies and importantly things, like baby and other friends.

i really should be happy now.

2009-04-09T02:48:00.002+08:00

been having this problem of not being able to sleep before 3 am. every single night im trying to sleep after 12, only to realize that i've been rolling in bed for the past 30 minutes and more. insomnia's a bitch. and hell, my friends asked whether i am thinking of anything when im trying to sleep. i reckon that every human beings who are trying to sleep will have their minds wondering everywhere and anywhere? no? i dun really want to know and care. all i want to be able to do is to be able to sleep at night and waking up just before my 2pm lectures every single day. i have been skipping school since saturday, monday, tuesay and wednesday. and she isnt happy at all.

instead of trying to get myself to sleep again, im blogging and watching mediacorp channel 8 now, hasbeen and very very old dramas which already had been playing for several hours in the middle of every night. its quite funny watching those hasbeen actors/actresses doing random hasbeen thing such as using the enormous handphone which they call it the 'da ge da' or the beeping sound of a pagar. dont ask me why i didnt bother to turn my radio or my itunes on.

seriously how am i going to sleep with all the issues on my mind right now. i dont want to go into details because its way too much whinings and i just hope things would get better. i really hope that it will get better.

ok my mind isnt very clear now. i need sleep. tomorrow is meihui 19th birthday and i hope that she will be happy tomorrow despite me not being able to go to arena with her. sorry and happy birthday.

can any kind soul tell me, why do all good things come to an end?

2009-04-07T02:31:00.001+08:00

i've decided to give this friendship another chance. true friendships are hard to come by.

2009-04-06T20:09:00.003+08:00

aren’t there just times when you realise that,
maybe,
you don’t know some friend (or maybe someone whom you regarded as a good friend) as well as you thought.

and i'm the type of person who held high expectations of friends,especially those better ones. and if people disappoints, all we need to do is just to move on and blame oneself for stupidly calling others good friends and forget about it, right? but many a time, because of the circumstances, it simply cannot be done. it would cause too much chaos and unneeded conflicts. people will unknowingly get involve in it and ultimately, more people will be left entrangled.

things started going downhill since god-knows-when and i simpy don't know the reason why things happened. it's like all the sudden, there's this rift between us. hardly i can ignore shit because it is getting to me. many times, i just wanted to swear and shout but thinking again, what's the use?

maybe its possible that some people out there might just remain your hi-bye friends, while others, acquaintances, and the few, good friends. i wish i can give a fuck about all these, because i need to focus on things more important than being unappreciated. and yes, im writing these because i feel like shit, feel like im being taken granted of, underappreciated. and i cannot allow these anymore.

i'm walking away.

2009-03-31T00:01:00.002+08:00

SIM semester break is always too long. Have not been blogging. Largely due to no inspiration to blog about anything, or I can say I'm plain lazy.

And so 1 semester just passed. Passed all my modules, and most of the clique too, so 2 more semesters to go and we'll all graduate together.

So this holiday I ain't working. It's just girlfriend, army friends, school mates, secondary school friends, gaming, shopping, movies this entire 3 weeks. Grrr. Slacked way too much but hey I think I really deserve this kinda break. Makes all the effort put in last semester worthwhile.

Just a few more days to my new semester.

2009-03-01T23:16:00.001+08:00

I know I shouldn't be saying this but I roughly know that MA is a goner for me.
May whatever up there bless me.

2009-02-21T01:46:00.000+08:00

I thought I can have it all.

2009-02-11T21:30:00.000+08:00

the choice was mine and mine completely
I could have any prize that I desired
I could burn with the splendor of the brightest fire
Or else or else I could choose time

I saw the lights and I was on my way
how they shone...
but how soon the lights were gone...

2009-02-09T01:38:00.001+08:00

when you hung up the phone without our usual 'love you' after our 'good night'.
i feel the knife piercing thru me.

i wish i can undo what i did.

2009-01-29T02:36:00.002+08:00

all these new year thingys really make me feel old. and as far as time flies, my dms course in sim is about to come to an end this year, in september. some of us are already contemplating where to go after our dms course.

where will I be after my dms? where will the rest be?
uol or what? even so, which course, what career am i really looking for?
will part-time study be viable in the long run? if so, when am i gonna start?
lots of questions are already running in my mind now.

for sure, i must work hard for my dms first before anything else.
honestly, what would become of me after dms?
i would like to know.

the future is still a blur.

as for the past, sometimes i just hope i can go back in time, stopping myself from making some bad decisions, and maybe so, there will be lesser heartaches. hiaz.

2009-01-25T23:04:00.002+08:00

just finished my reunion dinner a few hours ago. its chinese new year tomorrow. cant really say i have all the mood in the world for cny. but well, theres money, and steamboat! haha.

i look aroun, i sat down and i think it through. what is more to life than just emo-ing? people, friends around me are happy, i should also be happy. theres nothing to emo about when theres nothing i can do about it. sometimes, honesty might not be the best choice.

k le, shall not emo le.
:)

happy chinese new year to all my friends!

2009-01-18T01:38:00.002+08:00

sometimes i really admire my determination. i told my friends, i will slim down before semester 3 starts, and i really lose alot of weight.

i can fit in my 31" levis, and i can wear all the shirt i cant wear when im fat. i am very satisfied. i must continue to run and eat less and do more.

i never know im so determined.
i love myself.

2009-01-17T01:27:00.001+08:00

dear people,
im easily work up and emo and senstive when im tired. and with the fact now that im working and studying at the same time, i will be very very tired. pardon me if i give u attitude.

sorry people.

p.s im working @ vivo city, candy empire.
do visit.

2009-01-15T23:35:00.002+08:00

went to johor to get my cny shopping done. thanks to julian's car. deleted some emo entry cuz its ridiculous and redundant.

people, visit me in candy empire @ vivo city if you're there.

and to the few of you, pls continue to readmypokerface.

cant wait for cny and the clique's genting trip during sem break. mug, work, enjoy.
the decision is made and i know i will get better.

2009-01-05T22:04:00.003+08:00

i couldnt believe that i had been watching what everyone is watching every weekdays 9pm. the little nyonya.

today was the serial finale and i must said im kinda impressed by the whole serial though i only caught the last few episodes and abit of here and there.

'who you love the most might not be the one who treat you the best but the one who treat you the best might not be the one you love the most'.

and the show taught me that it doesnt really pay to be too good a person. LOL.
the tragic ending of 'yu zhu' really sadden me.

all in all, i think although the show is very very dramatic, its ending i guess its alright.

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so its the start of a new semester.
school today was fine.
marketing lesson = boring.
oh more boring modules coming my way anyway.
gonna work hard to retain my As!

anyway, went out with the skunks and sa to cathay for my job thingy and ip man.
okie loh normally such movie not my type but wa piang 6 dollar movies just watch loh.
nice movie by the way.
oh ya. now i feel stupid whenever i think about last time my movie ticket is always above 6.
no more >$6 movie tickets from now on.

2009-01-04T00:56:00.002+08:00

new year resolution -

study hard and graduate in due time which is in sept. no repeating modules, no retaining semester.
start saving up some money.
eat less, exercise more.
no more love entanglements.

simple and easy.

2009-01-03T02:16:00.002+08:00

i am so gonna type out some new year resolution shit since everyone is doing that now but i reckon the time isnt now because my internet is giving me problems now and im very very tired.

its been a fruitful semester break for me. though i didnt work, i have been going out so much more than my previous sem break. why is this month a fruitful one for me? well, cuz it seems like i had made a few friends closer to me le. and it feels good.

gonna paint my room tml. chinese new year is coming soon, have you guys shop? onward to malaysia really soon!

2008-12-31T11:45:00.001+08:00

sent my hp motorola v9 to service centre yesterday. am using some wulu samsung phone now. pardon me becuase i simply dont know how to use cui phone. not to mention the sms really sucks. i dont even know how to view my missed/recieved/dialled calls.

2008-12-28T21:57:00.002+08:00

spent the entire day watching rihanna - good girl gone bad tour. and i must say im quite impressed. the only other tour i had seen so far are madonna and gwen stefani ones.

im not exactly a die-hard rihanna fan but her good girl gone bad album is quite solid. selling 7 milion worldwide means alot.

though she dont really potray herself as a skank in her music videos but oh my gosh, she expose almost like everything in her tour. her vocal is not that good but still, kudos to her for being able to perfom so well, dancing oh so sexy and singing live and not buang-ing.

can definitely see her going far in her career.

2008-12-27T22:02:00.002+08:00

i logged in friendster just now. it has been really awhile.

my friendster account was started like march 2004 (it was shown in my friendster) so its been 4 years plus already. friendster used to be fresh and new, but the rising of other social sites really pu friendster to shame. well, i never tried other social sites except facebook which btw, totally overshadow friendster. theres some i know, like hi-5, multiply, the ever popular myspace etc etc.

but see where they all are standing now? hi-5 and multiply is like a has-beens now. and i think myspace is still going strong. friendster on the other hand, used to be so popular because its a new thing and its the pioneer of social networking site but now? whoops.

and whats the reasons for their demises? i dont know about the rest but for friendster, it because of those small, little, underage skanks in friendster. and so, this is the gist of this post - i was disgusted with friendster.

seriously, those skanks will never fail to go around tagging other people testimonial with 'VIEW & RUN?' added with their nicknames. example like 'YaseL♥', '♥SHEILA♥' and 'xiiao tianshi 没有人比我更爱你'. usually those lame lame names that nobody understand. those symbols and all. yucks. if you all got a name then please just use it! dont resort to weird weird names that people dont understand. its a social netowkring site, not a place for you to change name.

and well, one main function of friendster is the 'testimonial' but heck, those skanks use the function to actually converse in there, worse, post things like'VIEW AND RUN? BAKA!!' omfg.

and if friendster is not slow and ugly enough, those skanks have to go bling bling thier profile with messy html tags. by googling html layout and combining them together really lag the loading of their page, not to mention very messy. im so glad facebook didnt have such function.

friendster is degrading to a level lowest than ever. and its sad. with these skanks around, friendster will never ever see its former glory, ever again. i bet my life on it.

and of course theres alot of other factors too, like the increasing number of weird people in friendster, the ever increasing amount of spam a profile gets and of course, friendster is a hasbeen now.

i am comtemplating whether to delete my friendster or not.

2008-12-27T02:02:00.004+08:00

sorry friends. im so crazy over the language bar function that i just enabled in my lappy past few days ago that i must blog in mandarin. ok. for just this once. those that really cant read or understand chinese, feel free to use google translate.

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也不知道为了什么，今晚的感触特别多，仿佛像回到 semester 2 一样，天天 emo。也没说今天发生什么事啦，只是觉得有点累，有点傻。哈哈。好吧，好吧。就 blog 一下今天的happenings.

一大清早就得爬起来，因为 the clique 要带筱安去吃 seoul garden. 因为她没有吃过！哈哈。不能怪啦，马来西亚没有什么 seoul garden 吗。再加上我前晚睡得非常迟，真的是爬不起来啊。。。
遇到了大家，就此大吃一顿！大概花了四个钟头拼命吃！其实也不是很贵，学生只需要缴十五元就可以了。这是包括 gst 和 service charge.

吃完了也就去走走。走也走到了八九点。也没说买什么，原本要去看电影的，可是我又没带我的 contacts 再加上要看的戏也卖完了。不过啦，可以说我们玩得很高兴啊，只是希望下一次会有更多人的参与。

说到朋友，我也没有很多知心的朋友。可能是我的 happy-go-lucky 的性格，我也不会到处去向大家诉苦，说心事。
在这里要向我全部的知心朋友说一声 - 谢谢。
你们知道你们是谁。

说到这里，也觉得 language bar 很难用，三番四次打错字。
就此颗笔。

2008-12-26T04:36:00.005+08:00

i hardly ever post any youtube link but this is totally awesome!
i never ever see anyone else who can sing so well live.

leona lewis put mariah carey to shame.
she totally hit all the high notes!
leona lewis - run (live on x-factor)

best singer ever. her world tour better come to singapore. im so gonna go.

2008-12-25T03:44:00.002+08:00

i had so much fun today. christmas in town is really fun.
thanks judes for the pressie. and thanks everyone who can made it.
its been quite a while since i last took nr7. and it brings back soe memories. im glad that the me now, isnt into clubbing as much as before. well whatever.

well... and thanks to jane. im totally in love with malay food.
ahaha.

2008-12-24T13:40:00.002+08:00

its christmas eve. and i woke up with a little surprise beside me - my dad gave me allowance.
once in a blue moon, he'll do something very random to surprise me and to regret what i've been feeling for the past days or whatever.

not that his surprises are bad or what. its just that i dont know. maybe julian's right. its christmas, and i know they love me.

i totally cannot agree more that they love me. but its just all the anger and tantrums and dramas caused really overshadow it. notice i didnt say who cause it? well, both sides i guess.

plus it doesnt help when im the type of person who cannot take any lectures from anyone. well, not in a 'ok i understand' way. i'll argue and argue until i get my point across before anyone can talk sense into me. maybe they need just someone to talk to them. but apparently, none of us 3 siblings are doing anything much. theres this barrier between us and him. and it doesnt help when my mum loves to add fuel to fire at times.

but ultimately, we're still a family. and i love them all.
its christmas eve. and i wanna be happy.
cant believe im going out tonight to spray bangla again.
hehehe.

2008-12-23T00:06:00.002+08:00

now, i finally realised why i can never talk to the both of you.
dont even speak to me about logic, because you both dont.
firstly, its her problems.
then, its her problems.
and now, its me?

its time like this that makes me wanna move out.
fortunately i know i can depend on myself.

2008-12-21T04:13:00.002+08:00

i dont want to be the guy who laughs the loudest,
or the guy who never wants to be alone.

i dont want to be the guy that has to fill the silence.
the quiet scares me because it screams the truth.

2008-12-20T23:38:00.003+08:00

i used to have this friend. lets just call him A.
we used to be so close. and perhaps due to her very sociable, she happen to be quite close with one of my close friend. plus, i know his other friends too.
so we became a tightly knitted group.

and after i went into ns, things changed. A suddenly disappeared. neither of us can contact him.
its like he's intentionally avoiding all of us altogether.

after almost close to 4 years, he's back.

and no.
we will never forgive or forget what you did and said.
always claiming to go US? australia? or wherever?

you can come back, but not to us.

2008-12-18T23:54:00.003+08:00

went on a impromptu trip to johor with stars. too bad cq cant come.

oh well, thought of like going beyond city square but too bad, not going to allow those taxi drivers to rip us off. so we spend almost the entire day in city square. sadly lah. but luckily theres a cinema there.

so its like, eat, shop, movie, eat, shop, get a haircut, eat, shop and lotsa bitchings too. their so called 'inner city' - bugis street equivalent and quite buang but extremely cheap cathay cinema, and the dangerous and no security johor bahru and the never-ending worries of whether what we ate were safe or not but okay lah, still i appreciate their almost worthless money though.

i had fun. a lot of fun.

shall go johor once again soon.
but i promise to go beyond city square the next time.

2008-12-16T23:40:00.002+08:00

hey hi.!
im a cutie pie.

im happy because the entire clique passed almost like everything.
so i guess we can all really enjoy our semester break now.

a little update, i might be working very soon.
please go to ice3 cafe to find me, ya, the cutest one is me. no doubt about it.

ok im very bored now.
:(

2008-12-16T03:23:00.003+08:00

so many dramas, so many sagas.
so many gatherings and birthday celebrations.

im jealous because:
1) why can they celebrate their 21st birthday in singapore, whereas i cant?
2) why is it that they ord before their 21st birthday, unlike me?

ok whatever.

2008-12-11T01:33:00.004+08:00

and finally i'm done with the whole blogskin changing thing. its not that i forgot how to change my effing skin, its just that there's too much skins out there that sucks so hard.

i feel that its time to be serious about certain things. and to begin things with my blog being the first. as much as i love madonna, i took it off because i want to be treat seriously, no one will bother to even read what I'm typing if they see a idol-obssessed blog. not like i'm so childish to be ki-siao-ing over idols now. i've long gotten over that period. yeah whatever, you get my point.

i've learnt that honesty might not be the best option in all situations. i guess its basic common sense but i guess i learned it the hard way. not to say that there's any serious or dramatic things going on in my life at the moment to warrant me from saying all these. i'm just being very random. i mean, its not like i'm very free to blog about nothing and anything, but suddenly the feeling to blog just come. ok random number one.

humans are complicated creatures. sometimes when you thought that you know a person really well, something gotta happen and you are unexpectedly swept off the ground. what they say and what they do, still amaze me at times. i'm thankful to know these really great bunch of friends during during ns and after ns though. ok, random again.

ok, i'm totally sleepy now and my eyes are closing. i'm having this 4 seconds goldfish memory thing right now because i dont recall what i just typed. i typed what is going on in my mind right now. i should sleep.

and yes. i love small letters whether you like it or not. also, all future entries will be left-aligned.

this is how i do.

2008-12-06T21:17:00.002+08:00

Whoops. Why is my previous posts gone? I deleted it.
Because things are fine as it is now so there's no need for lamenting posts to lie around.

Time totally flies. It's been like more than 6 months since I ord-ed. And my fats are piling up every single day. Thus, for the 3 weeks plus holiday, I'm totally jogging every single day. We gotta go take our IPPT together, Eugene & CQ.

After so long of not running, I must say that just a mere 4km run is already killing me. Whilst running, lotsa thoughts came into my mind. The army days, the memories, the dramas, the bonds we all made, the friends. Nope. I still hate Frederick Wong. I totally loathe Mr Peh Jun Kai. But at times, I miss my army days.

How is the rest doing so far? I'm glad that I still maintain contact with some of them. I know most of them are in Uni now, and all of us should be having our little semester break right now.

Well, this December I just wanna get ready for my IPPT and rest well. Hopefully, the job I landed with my cousin's company will be a fruitful one.

And also, I gotta keep my emotions in check. Semester 2 sees a very emotional Ronald going around creating havoc. But still, thanks to my friends, no one is killed and I'm forgiven.

I hope to see a change in myself, and a good one at that.

2008-11-19T22:30:00.004+08:00

Anyway, it's been a while since I last blogged.
Wanna thank everyone for wishing me and/or celebrated my 22nd birthday, you know who you are!

Every single one of you, I really really appreciate everything.

Exams are coming.
Good luck all.

2008-11-07T22:44:00.001+08:00

To hell with lovey-dovey emo shit.

Sometimes, you just have no fucking idea who will avoid you when you need help and how hard it is to ask for help, not to mention, accept help from others.

But of course, with these, there's surprises too.
Let's just say that I'm very lucky to have some people around me when I need them.
Thank you, you should know who you are, from the bottom of my heart.

-----

Day today was well spent with the clique. We ECP-ed, we K-ed, we joked, we laughed.
But now its time for mugging and mugging and mugging.

2008-11-05T11:15:00.000+08:00

I have someone that I love long long!
But my friends keep telling me that something’s wrong that I miss someone and eh.

There’s nothing else I can say.
There's nothing else I can do.

:(

2008-11-02T00:49:00.003+08:00

I just woke up from a fuzzy dream.
You never would believe the things that I have seen.
I looked in the mirror and I saw your face.
You looked right through me, you were miles away..

When no one's around and I have you here, I begin to see the picture as it becomes so clear.
All my dreams, they fade away.
I'll never be the same.

Too much of no sound; uncomfortable silence can be so loud.

I'm alright.
Don't be sorry.
But it's true that when I'm gone, you'll realize that I'm the best thing that happened to you.

I'll always love you more, miles away.
Can you hear it in my voice, when we're miles away?
I'm not afraid to tell you, miles away.

So close yet so far away..

2008-10-28T00:20:00.001+08:00

Somehow I feel that the clique are much closer now.
Even though we might have our dramas, even though mid semester is tough, we still held on together.

<3 you guys.

We'll still have plenty of chances for fun! Let's get this semester over and done with!

I really had fun today, and I hope you guys too.

2008-10-26T17:33:00.001+08:00

That door is closed, the car has driven away, my ship has sailed forever.

2008-10-25T00:26:00.004+08:00

Your touch, your taste, your breath, your face, your hands, your head,
you're sweet.

Your love, your teeth, your tongue, your eye,
you're mine.

Your lips,
you're fine.

Look at you and what I see is heaven on earth.

2008-10-23T20:30:00.002+08:00

As usual, as with the arrival of mid semester, the stress level and headaches will just pour in relentless.

God. Been not sleeping enough for weeks already. Rushing this and that. I'm glad that we only got 3 modules each semester. But all 3 are killing us, slowly but surely.

I totally need to finish up a report tonight but well, I haven't even started. And reports just echo 'failure' to me because of what happened last semester.

But at the very least, busy bee me is happier than emo me.

Got to start already.

2008-10-23T01:37:00.001+08:00

All in all, I'm happy that this entire thing did not escalated into yet another BIG DRAMA.

I admit I over-reacted.
But that is because I care about our friendship.

But now all is fine.
And I still <3 you my BFF, Julian Tan!

2008-10-20T20:56:00.003+08:00

Reality hurts.

Ah fuck. Whatever. I should bury myself in school work.
Well, at least, 5 days of not smoking.

I wish I could accept the truth more easily.
And maybe don't get so hurt.

:(

2008-10-19T22:12:00.001+08:00

For once I can say that I'm truly relieved.
The Sunday spent at home wasn't a fruitless one.

First of all, I spoke to some of my busy-so-we-seldom-contact friends.
Second of all, I did things to de-stress.
Thirdly, I finished up some of my assignments.
Then, today spells my fourth day of NOT SMOKING.

And, I think I finally understood everything.

What's yours will be yours someday,
but what's not yours, will never be yours.

With that, I hope to end everything sad & emo with a happier and slightly-more matured Ronald.
Ronald is toning down.

:)

2008-10-18T11:01:00.001+08:00

Ronald still can't believe that he'll fall for that person.
Actually, he's still very very sad. Very very down.
Feeling very vulnerable. Very close to crying.
Sigh.
When will this ends?

2008-10-17T22:38:00.003+08:00

You know, sometime when we want something really bad, we forget that there are other people involved, and we just get stuck in our own little world and it doesn't matter what other people feel, except that, it does matter.

I know for sure since beginning that this is just going to end bad.
I know I'll get my heart broken.

I lost it once, I don't want to lose it again.

2008-10-16T22:32:00.003+08:00

Spent long hours in school today.
Finally finished the accounting assignment.

Thanks to Priya, Sri & Julian. For coaching me and accompanying me.
I really need friends right now.

I forced myself to keep going, just to forget everything.
Keeping myself busy, so as I don't think of you.

2008-10-16T00:55:00.001+08:00

Since there's never a you and me,
it's time I let you go.
So I can be free,
and live my life how it should be.

No matter how hard it is,
I'll be fine without you.

Yes. I will.

2008-10-15T02:25:00.001+08:00

The past week had been a real emotional roller coaster ride for me.

Been feeling down for days. Cannot seems to concentrate on anything that I am doing. I'm worried that my grades in school will suffered.

Gotta thanks May and Joshua for going out with me yesterday. I felt especially shitty that day. Kept on staring at black spaces and letting my mind drifting to places where I don't even know myself. I told them that I need a drink and I just want to talk to someone. They brought me to somewhere in Clarke Quay and we just drank and drank and drank. Thanks for paying for the drinks and sending me home. I got home half-drunk. Bryan came over. I attention-whored him over so I am not alone. Really got to thank him lots. He came over without hesitation and even skipped his lessons for me. And in the end, he got to run for his last train. I appreciate that, really.

But the drinking didn't stop there. I took out my Vodka and finished like 1/4 of it myself.

And now while I'm typing these, I feel retarded. Trying to drown myself in misery. What was I thinking? I just need someone by my side, I guess.

I vomited the entire night away and I got hung over the next day. I couldn't even concentrate in class today.

But at the very least, something hits me.
Is it worth it? To do all these shits and make it even more painful? What do I really want from all these?

Is it really love? Or just another crush?
And why is crushing so tough?

Thank you friends for tolerating my nonsense. I'm about to come back strong, and focus everything in my studies now. I want As this semester. I promised.

2008-10-12T23:33:00.000+08:00

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you.
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized.
And I've just got to know.

Do you ever think when you're all alone.
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away.
But I know this crush ain't goin' away...

2008-10-12T16:37:00.001+08:00

So there we had it.

The start of the new semester. Things seemingly had changed without us knowing it.
People changed. Relationships changed. Emotions always changing.

Could it be that it's too much?
Too much for our simple human heart and mind to take it?

Somehow or rather, things may have pointed at somewhere but at times, it's the complete opposite.
I really want to believe in it. The feelings, the actions. Do I have to make a choice given different options?

50% is random. Very random.
It's either hit or miss.

If I can't have it. I'll lost everything. The effort I put in. The emotions that goes in and out of me every single day.

I cannot afford to miss.

If it works out, I would be the happiest person on Earth.

Is it really naïve to want to believe in people, myself and others?

I'm drained.

-----

On the brighter side of things, we began our school life with tons of activities.

Skipping lessons together.
Going to town together.
Birthday chalet.
Visited abandon places at night.
Late night supper.

It was good. And it will be always good.

2008-10-08T21:27:00.001+08:00

Who bother writing anything if one doesn't want anyone to know?

Don't come any closer.
I will try to walk away.
But we know its impossible.
And by impossible, I don't mean very hard.
It's literally cannot be done.

I thought I heard a knock.
Who's there?
No one.

I need fun and play.
To get me by.

2008-10-02T23:51:00.003+08:00

yesterday i was in a dillemma.

i woke up. my mum told me we are all celebrating my dad's birthday. i'm like, wth isnt it suppose to be on 2 oct? then i quickly rush down to get present for my dad. and conveniently, that day was michelle's baby full month celebration as well as alice's 21st birthday. what to do. what can i do? alice inform me like 5 days earlier but then again i should automatic abit la and remember its her birthday. michelle inform me like 2 weeks earlier.

i feel bad. but my dad is more important! hehe.

school started today. and it was good.
<3 julian. hes been a great friend. thanks for printing out timetable for us and the entire clique!

but im also disappointed at something that happened today. but its okay. things will get better. and of course, i bought my iPod nano already! hehehe.

2008-09-25T01:15:00.000+08:00

Blank.

Life as it is now, one word, sucks.

I'm almost like, doing nothing everyday.
Sleeping like 4 am every single night.
Waking up like 2 or 3 pm every afternoon.

I'm waiting for the day where we all can go down to school to get our notes and get all crazy again.

I admit, I'm waiting for school to start.
Don't tell me that you did not just saw this.

I'm seriously bored.

Ugly Betty is all what I've been watching everyday.
And I'm almost done with the show.

I really want to write my point of view about this award-winning show but my writing sucks so I'm so not going to do that.

I want to meet up with my friends and all but cash is my only obstacle.

Fuck.
I'm bored.

2008-09-24T01:50:00.003+08:00

Sorry for no writing on you blog. As a matter of fact, since I have been blogging in Facebook I might as well import them here and vice versa. I will never abandon this. 6 years of blog and still going strong. So from now onwards, my notes in Facebook and this blog will be intertwined. Whatever I posted there will be whatever is shown here. Though I'm not going to import every of my 6 years of shit to Facebook.
---

September 8. 2008, 7.37pm

Holidays?

It's been 3 fucking long years since I last stepped foot into a class, and called it my own.

I really appreciate what my parent did to put me back in school. Not to mention the fact that most of my army friends are all well-verse in their studies. So it kinda got to me. In a positive way.

Now, school had started and school had ended. Not ended in a bad 'forever' way, it's just another semester break.

I really want to bitch about this break thing but I guess it's not that nice. Break is just break. Too long a break I would say. 3 friggin' weeks? I can't do shit. And I thought I could get a holiday job or something but all the response I got was either '3 weeks is too short' or 'how about you work for me as a tele-marketer?'.

Sorry but no thanks.

I've worked before such jobs and seriously, you want me to go back doing that? Pay wise is unstable. You earn what you do. It can be good or bad, but I really would like to just, you know, get a simple job even if it's a hourly rate kind of thing. And so, my Mum whined.

To hell with it, really. I could really do with asking several of my friends out. People like Bree and Sean an Sri and all. Now Sri needs help with her English, which unfortunately, isn't her first language.

Well, I hoped for the best in my upcoming examination results which will come out on the 18th and for now, we'll see what the holidays might bring me to.

September 15, 2008, 11.26pm

Why?

Pourquoi es-tu si belle?
Pourquoi tu bouges comme sa?
Pourquoi tu me fais mal?

Oooh, je me sens tout nu.

Pourquoi tu fais tout ca?
Pourquoi tu dis tout ca?
Pourquoi tu me fais mal?

J'ai ainsi..
Besoin de vous j'ai.
Besoin de vous.

Ooh Oui!

September 24, 2008, 1.49pm

Random emo shit.

Hello mother Earth, I'm standing on you for 22 years already.

Bored Ronald has been going around friends' profiles and all and wow, all the changes. What have they been doing and how do they look now to where they are now. It's incredible.

I know, I know, I should have seen this coming, hello, I'm not really that young anymore to realize that I have grown up. And before the flames start to set in or the sparks fly everywhere, I'm talking about physically-wise, age-wise, not in terms of maturity, in case people want to 'inform' me I'm still acting like a child, but that will be for other days alright? But this is one of the few times in life which you still wish we were a kid because kids can afford to make mistakes.

Sometime, don't you wish you can go back in time to rewrite history, to amend all the mistakes you've done or to change certain courses of action? I believe everyone does. But still, there is no room for regrets.

For me, ever since after my army days, I know where I want to be, where I want to go, and how much I want all these to happen. I guess we can all say that looking forward is better than staying in memories.

I get it. I should just tuck myself in bed, and get to sleep. This post is a pointless one. But hey, nobody's gonna stop me from typing in my own notes right?

I am excited for my new semester and I'm very proud and happy to be able to cleared my first semester. Kudos to all my good friends out there for all the cheering, teaching, coaching, dramas, bitching, gossips, tears, happiness, stress, long bus rides and whatever I didn't mention.

I ended this post with a smile.

2008-09-11T00:42:00.002+08:00

After 1 week semester break, finally I'm starting work tomorrow.

I'll be working at my Dad's office. Some IT-related work. I'm glad. At least I've income for these weeks before school start.

Been spending lotsa time with Sri, coaching her English and all. She's getting better day by day. And yes, I've get rid of my PSP and got myself a brand new DS. I realise I prefer DS after using both handhelds. Well, maybe it's due to the fact that I can game online with Nintendo Wi-Fi. Well whatever.

Time to sleep and work work work.

2008-09-07T22:06:00.002+08:00

its been days since i last do anything meaningful, not that im doing meaningful stuff every other days.

i dont really know what i wanna write about.
let's start from what i have been doing for the past few days that made me realize something.

i solemnly announced that Friendster is HAS-BEEN.

why do i say so? well, friends have been asking me to try Facebook. i admit, the first few times I really don't understand the fun in it but because due to my huge amount of free time, I got hooked.

you can do shit things inside the entire day without realizing it.
it's good. people give it a try.

2008-09-06T13:48:00.000+08:00

i'm selling my PSP slim metallic blue.
please contact me if you wanna buy.

hehehe.

2008-09-04T23:21:00.002+08:00

examinations are finally, finally over.
these 2 weeks has been harsh.
many changes, lot of surprising turning of events.
some good, some bad.

results will be coming out on 18 September. call me cocky or arrogant but I think I can pass all my modules, except for MPO. looks like I have to do something about the module repeating fees.

I'm thinking of getting a temporary job since I have 3 weeks before the semester starts.

today was good. the last paper, business maths, was okay. the clique went down to Orchard today to catch 4Bia(phobia). I must say, the girls are much more braver than the guys.

Julian actually came to my group and apologized to us. it's amazing how things can actually turn around. we forgive him but we wouldn't know if we'll be taking hi back into the group or not. time will tell.

alright. time for relaxation.
:)

2008-09-02T22:25:00.002+08:00

what it feels like when your feelings is not being reciprocated.

i guess its the stress that make me feel this way. no, i haven't been feeling like that since like last year. i hate the person. always giving me that fucking stare. that look in the eyes. i feel it. when i can't get you, i fucking hate you.

anyway, exams is almost over. 1 more paper to go. i wouldnt say much. i guess MPO is a BUANG already. but i really don't wish to retake the module again.

i'm not sure why i'm blogging bullocks now.

2008-08-27T23:48:00.002+08:00

either its me or mediacorp have been producing quite a number of local drama.
i love how the show 'the defining moment' starring fann wong on channel 5 every weeknights tells us all about the bad stuff about some of the families in our societies now.

great stuff. from how stranger-ish people in the family can get. to how some mcuh problems can actually bring them closer together. i feel that it's very well done and i cant wait for the finale of the drama. though fann wong only acted in one local drama every year since like forever, her acting is really real. some would really wonder if she's been all through that but right, i dont think she's crazy before.

kudos to her and the scriptwriters.

2008-08-26T01:21:00.002+08:00

this post is my 767th posts.
in case you guys didnt know, my first post is on 30th may 2004.
my blog is 4 years old already! and my first post is so childish and awful. no. im not posting it here.
im only 17 at that point in time. and now im gonna hit the 22nd mark.

speaking about birthdays, wongxuyang 21st is coming, and of course, my dearest darling jane birthday is just this coming saturday. im sure we'll all have alot of fun that day. that's like the only day of relaxation for all of us who's chiong-ing for next week's exams.

im glad i have friends who actually wanna study and get good results. unlike my tp days, everyone just wanna slack and survive all the modules with the borerline grades. i love you guys.

anyway, i just wanna let priya know that she needs to buck up more. priya, if you're reading this, i just wanna say that everyone is worried for you. you have not been studying hard these few days. i must say that when it comes to play, you can play hard and that is good. but i just hope that you can study hard too. come on, we got only a few more days to go. i know our CA results are not bad, so lets dont allow examinations to pull our grades down. get your ass moving girl, move with our pace. dont slow down. we're all together in the same boat.

best of luck to all my friends who studying.

2008-08-24T00:00:00.000+08:00

i guess without school it kinda bore me.
so here i am to blog again.
i just wanna let off steam.

i got this fucking memory leak issue with my laptop since last this morning.
been going online to find the solution but to no avail.
finally finally after lots of hours of looking and seeking and searching and hoping and wishing,
i found the cause!
nvm what program actually causes the memory leak issue.
its settled. im such a happy ronald once again.

this whole incident prone me to do a lookup in wikipedia.
i started to reminisce the days in poly.
IT course. lots of programming and shit like that.
java, C+ programming, networking.
i really got interest in IT studies and all that.
it just that i fucking hate myself for choosing a IT-course-but-not-so-at-the-same-time course.
i got over it already.

maybe, just maybe, i might just opted into a IT course in the future after my diploma.

2008-08-23T17:21:00.003+08:00

im @ the bugis library now.
which i must say, it totally sucks.
strict regime and all.
no bags, no books, no notes.
you are only allowed a piece of paper.
heck, no even a file/folder is permissible.

it was a day meant for english/mpo. but we couldn't even find any tables and chairs.
we settled for sofa which obviously are not suitable for studying.
yes, they have this study lounge but please. its so frigging packed.

i guess for this coming exams, things will be pretty much okay.
4 topics for mpo exams.
english should be a breeze.
im only worry about maths.
oh well, whatever.
we got this study group thing during this exam break so i might as well make full use of it.

im gonna go have dinner before going home.

2008-08-22T22:27:00.003+08:00

you know, i totally have no talent in the likes of art.
fine arts, good arts, amazing art. whatever.
i cant appreciate art at all.
not to mention that i flunk my arts in secondary school every year.
i shun arts.
totally.
call me dumb and/or stupid.

but recently, i manage to grab a copy of Bjork's album.

Volta, her most recent album.
weird cover huh?

everyone all knows that she not a mainstream pop singer.
as a matter of fact, she belongs to the alternative genre when it comes to music.
sure i cant understand arts. but i must say, her latest album is worth the listening to.
it took me 3 month to love this album.
from the first single 'earth intruders' to all the non-single tracks.
alternative is the shit.

now, no one can say i dont appreciate arts anymore.
for Bjork is the goddess of arts.
songs to album cover to singles cover to costumes selection in her tour.
she is amazing.

im gonna get copies of her previous works.

to someone, i dont have the heart to tell you nasty stuff.
because i want to remember the good side of you.
you was good to all of us.
i'll never forget the good memories.

2008-08-22T00:05:00.003+08:00

there is 2 girl, A, and girl, B.
both are close friends of mine.
so naturally the three of us are on very good terms.

but one day something happened.
then B talked to me.
we realised, A has been talking about me behind my back.
yet at the same time, A also talk about B to me.

also suddenly, everyone is involved.
and everyone is unhappy with A for quite some time already, in fact.

things are not okay.
and now, im being involved in it.

i feel betrayed. used.

2008-08-21T23:24:00.002+08:00

i overslept. and missed the last lecture of this semester.
guys im so so so sorry. im such a zhu rou.
i guess i missed alot on what happened today.

there's this liew lesson on sat. extra lesson by him.
i wonder if i should go or not.

now there's really gonna be lots of drama..
i guess it's human nature.

2008-08-21T01:18:00.004+08:00

girl's 21st birthday.
fun. cupcakes is so not disappointing.
her colleagues. nice people.
chalet was not. fuck it.
encounter with the third kind. too much for us all to take. let it be.

madonna turns 50 this year. woah. i cant wait to see her coming up tour.
its gonna be sticky and sweet~

tml last lesson for the sem. seems like things in the clique should be ok soon.
will things ever be the same again?
i guess we'll see.

*edited* singtel is fucking trying to milk its subscribers. i cant believe they are coming out with those new lame expensive plans just for us to get the iphone from them. at least like $56 per month. PLUS, high top up charges, $250, for existing-subscribers. fuck you. im waiting for other carriers. i might even jump ship to starhub. fuck you singtel. fuck you.

2008-08-19T23:05:00.002+08:00

im in a state of shock.

the skank serene from virtus suddenly msg me and told me virtus cui liao. singtel side all buang. sad for virtus. without me confirm buang lah. haha. i good in sales one loh. after i left, all also left. we left at the right time. still remeber the zhu rou jeremy always boast here and there now the entire office only 26 people. fucking pathetic.

its just sad lah. but im happy to know so many great friends there. hehehe.

recently, alot of dramas in school. tsk tsk. maybe its because the exams is just round the corner and tensions just naturally get high.

2008-08-18T23:10:00.002+08:00

well, school been really stinks with bunch of has-been lecturers' lesson.
first, how could mrs nair ask the MOST zhu rou guy in the class the effects of being a zhu rou? and make remarks like whether he wears curtains or not. i LOL-ed so hard.
second, mr liew is trying so hard to keep students in his class by luring us with exam hints and telling us lotsa merepek stuff. machaim got award for having the most student till 12.30pm. please.
lastly, mr yakta. such a talent, such a waste, thought he could be good. no doubt his knowledge is all up there but damn, his lesson is fucking dry. i know management is never fun to begin with but really, his voices make people sleep.

how to pass the exams with such lecturers?
sim please dont extort anymore money from me. i shall pass all modules.

nowadays, theres this monetary problems in the clique. wanna work. but after school work is tiring. ok, next sem i shall work after school if given the opportunities. girl's 21st is coming and im so poor till i cant buy any worthy present for her. i have been giving her wonderful presents since her 18th. and this year im too poor. luckily. i bought something. hehehe. wed is just gonna be you and me. lion is gone, but im not.

relationship affairs is also a concern when it comes to teens/young adulthood, been thru 2 worthy relationship, all i can say is that im satisfied with my life now. enjoying singlehood, putting my effort into studies, friends, family.

hope in a few years time, i shall not rely on public transport anymore. like, when i see uncles on mrt/buses, i feel for them. why arent they owning their own transports? so i always told myself: study hard, get a fucking car; fuck those public transport.

food for thought-

its tedious to wonder what other people around you might be thinking about. we are all humans. especially when the clique is so fucking big, misunderstandings are bound to happen.

a human mind is a complex one.
what is the someone beside you thinking about right now?
go ponder.

2008-08-17T01:17:00.002+08:00

I remember my last movie was Iron Man. It was with nice and fun people like Vanessa and gang.

Today, EVIL people such as Daniel & Patrick practically forced me out of the house, despite my constant whining that I'm tired, to watch movie with them. After rounds and rounds of arguing and all, we settled for a early night slot. So god damn last minute lor please.

Went down to Tampines Mall and I saw KTL and his GF. Woot woot. It was a pleasant surprise. This guy ah, I had so much history with him.

Anyway, we watched 12 Lotus. It left me a strange feeling. I wouldnt say whether 881 was better or this is better. But seriously, it's worth the 10 bucks.

Saturday is always a time of fun and sleep for me.
ZzZ...

2008-08-15T20:00:00.002+08:00

i went back to school after a two days hiatus.

business english lecture today. mrs naya gave us a scare today. so many people actually failed english CA. about 34%. i hope i can do okay for the exams. and nisa dont worry too much. and also congratulate to wong skunk for doing so well.

i feel so weak early in the morning. maybe i shouldnt go school at all. my fever came back around 11am. now im feeling better already.

exams is coming.

2008-08-14T20:15:00.002+08:00

fever is so not good.

it all started yesterday morning. ya the day without any lectures at all. i woke up. feeling tired. i dun feel like im sick at all until this tiredness feeling lasted me throughout 4, 5 pm. i told my mum and she touched my forehead. 'fever?', she said. i was like, NO WONDER.

its was still good. until 6 plus. i shivered and all. i took some panadol and went to sleep around 8 plus 9. all the way to this morning 4.30am. woke up and puked. then sleep all the way to 7 plus am. mum woke me up to had my medicine and breakfast. she told me not to go school as my face still as white as ghost.

i tried to online abit but i cannot even watch the screen for more than 15 minutes before i feel weak. then i sleep to 3 pm.

all in all im such a zhu rou. i slept alot. i hate to get fever. i still feel numb here and there. gosh.

2008-08-13T00:27:00.003+08:00

I IS EMO AND EMO ME DELETED SOME BLOG LINKS.
BLOODY KUKU PEOPLE GOT DELETED. HEHEHE.
PLS DONT MIND ME AS I AM EMO-ING RIGHT NOW.

I KNOW THIS IS SO RANDOM BUT,
FUCK YOU JULIAN.

2008-08-13T00:18:00.001+08:00

fucking emo me must come up with a fucking emo blog skin.
so once again the emo me got myself a new blog skin.

sit back and enjoy my emo shit.

2008-08-12T23:48:00.003+08:00

silly ronald is looking at my army photos and it brings back so much memories. let the reminisicing begins...

BMT

i really really miss them all. but too bad. we are not so much into contact.
maybe its the awkwardness after not meeting up for so many months, and even two years or more. maybe its that we dont know what to chat about. maybe its because we stayed all over singapore. maybe, just maybe there's more reasons why.

my platoon in jurong camp

perhaps theres so much stuff that goes on in my jurong camp life. 1 year 9 months. jurong camp. the ups and downs. the many people that i known and made friends with. the memories.

i miss my army days. but yet i dun wanna go back for any reservist. bmtc reservist would be nice though.

im getting too emo.

2008-08-11T23:47:00.001+08:00

the blogging fad is coming back again.
well, at least in my clique.
gonna change a new blogskin to keep up.

well here it is.
comment please.

2008-08-11T22:47:00.003+08:00

thanks to jane nachos. accompanied me to funan IT mall after lessons.
searched high and low. finally found a laptop sleeve.
phew... no more of using the buang enormous laptop bag that's given by dell.

lunner with her. we talked about the highs and lows. its was good.
lunner = lunch + dinner.

sri's bf came over to singapore a few days back. and he actually came down to school with sri.
nice, shy guy. sweet little couple, sri hur hur?

well. its time to face reality.
skunk and skanks, lets get ready to study hard. exams is just around the corner.

2008-08-09T00:24:00.002+08:00

finally no more assignments.

had a big big big big big big argument with julian.
it seems like, the rest of the group vs him.

I don't wan to remember what happened.

things is over now.
we also don't have the intention of having him into our group anymore.
my team wanna stay as one.

well well well.

finally.
i managed to solve the vista problem.
lag-free now.
woot.

alright happy birthday singapore.
long weekend for me.
its not long la actually.
just that sim student dont have the privilege of having sat as a weekend.
but seeing as tomorrow is public holiday, sat is no school day.

let me sleep all the way.
then worry about exams.

hehehe.

2008-08-06T01:32:00.003+08:00

look @ the time now.
its 1.33am

im still happily webcam-ing with NACHOS.
so fun.

tired but heck lah. mpo sucks anyway.
oh, and vista sucks too.

tml deadline for mpo. and thanks julian for the last minutes work.
friday deadline for english. dont last minute me again julian.

2008-08-02T20:34:00.002+08:00

i hate windows vista.
why do all the new computers come with vista instead of xp?
xp is good. vista, not so.

well well well. another week is over.
still gt a bit of mpo and english projects more to finish.
maths ca is almost done.

today's lesson was almost sickening.
fancy those foreigner students cannot accept the fact that we're better than them.
and they tried to mark our group down.
but too bad. it didnt work.
but one thing for sure, they disgust me.
so much.

im just sian.

2008-07-31T22:47:00.002+08:00

second time that my laptop is delayed. for the love of god, dell.
it'll be coming tml evening.

been killing my brain cells since coming home from school. management project is a bitch. i finished it before 10 pm. and julian told me its not relevant and told me to edit. well. personally i think its good and all. i tried to defend but what the fuck, since you want it i'll just do it. group effort.

but really. im about to have it enough about school.

its just so sad lah. things dont always go sailing smoothly. fuck.
jus slp. and tml will be better one.

2008-07-30T17:31:00.002+08:00

im going bonkers.

did something really bad today. was pissed off. pissed off several people. cant believe what i did. sorry nisa, siti, sri and xiao an.

i really really got to step up. acting cranky and all that for days already. i should sleep. get more sleep.

bad bad week.

2008-07-29T23:45:00.002+08:00

wa. unisim really extortion.
retake module need pay 642 bucks. its not like need an extra semester, can retake module at next semester what. now i know why everyone say sim expensive. but since i dun intend to fail any module, it might as well add extra pressure on me. a little stress is always good.

feel bad. dad's been giving me a lot of allowance. since he already paid for my sch fees, i dun expect him give me so much allowance. though transportation is really expensive. food in sch is uber expensive too. yet he keep on giving and giving. thanks dad. for everything. sch, allowance, laptop and all the trust.

got to thank priya too, for making extra breakfast for me everyday without fail. and even bringing it to class every morning.

well, i thought it over today, after talking to nisa for over an hr on bus and train home. its time i get serious and all. been really fooling around. and its not good. for someone my age. guess im over playful. cheeky. clown. joker. play too much. joke too much. horsing around at the wrong time, wrong place. its time to adjust my attitude.

fitness been getting to me. i need to start exercising. dun wanna be the next zhu rou in class.

well well well, exams is in early sept. gonna work harder.

2008-07-28T20:02:00.003+08:00

Monday blues.

today sucks. every was just bad.
from business maths all the way to home.

the night before today was already bad enough. couldn't get to sleep till 2.30am
sleepy all the way.

firstly, business maths as usual our lecturer dont know what he's teaching.
so, we left the lecture hall and head over to the lounge. then lunch.

suddenly feel so irritated with priya and julian.

left sch in a hurry.
then the fucking bus aircon sub-standard.
sweat all the way home.

the day couldn't get any worse when the fucked up dell called and told me there will be delays in the delivery of my laptop.

2008-07-27T20:01:00.003+08:00

i think i owned my dad an apology.
i said i couldn't rely on him.

but just now, he asked my mum to gave me some allowance and also a laptop invoice.
he bought a new laptop to surprise me.

dell inspiron 1520.
but i really really want a sony vaio
though its not sony vaio, the spec definitely win sony hands-down.

thanks dad. and sorry for doubting you.

2008-07-24T19:04:00.003+08:00

*edited because i forgive people really easily

i just dyed my hair yesterday. woot. but ct and nisa told me it doesnt really suit me. at least no more white hairs.

well, tml is english assignment due date. time to work.

2008-07-23T21:02:00.001+08:00

disappointed. realized that certain things cannot rely on my dad.
what to do? can only suck thumb.

school has been great. friends. studies. assignments. projects. dramas.
yes. my class is filled with dramas. fortunately, i am a drama person.

after this week i could take a breather before i go on ahead with one of my modules. hopefully i would be able to clear all my modules in this semester.

well well well. can somebody just get me what i want/need? pretty, please?

2008-07-10T00:32:00.006+08:00

its tough i know.
let time heal your wounds.
after that, we would be friends again.

dont want to be too nice to you,
in case you think too much.
dont want to be too cruel to you,
because i treasure the friendship.

i will never ever forget the love.
take care.

dedicated the song 'bye-bye' by mariah carey to you.

p.s just like what the song says, we will never say bye.

2008-07-08T02:13:00.003+08:00

I knew it could hurt
But everyday life goes on
I wish I could explain to you
Miss but please try not to cry

As time goes by
And soon you'll find a better someone

Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'll always remember you

Now it's like you're gone too soon
And the hardest thing to do is say bye-bye

p.s to whomever it concern..