i just feel like sprouting everything im unhappy about here right now. if not whats the point of blogging, right?

just finished up econs projects with a few friends and econs really is the shit. its one of the worse modules ever. and im contemplating whether i should carry on with going on to UOL for my econs degree after my diploma. plus my part isnt exactly easy to do.

i just came across a certain friend's blog of mine whom isnt really well-liked by me or another one for that matter. his blog consist of his stupid school shit and his really random life like fishing, or making some stupid pork and supper at clementi etc. gosh. just like stars i totally will never do those, he can jolly well go eat the whatever breaded pork for all i care too.

and i really want to say i dont care anymore because what im doing isnt being appreciated at all and im just some calefair, well it stinks and im really not going to care, but then a few hours later i will feel really bad there i am, eating my own words just like the song by p!nk 'please dont leave me'. the feeling is exactly the same shit man. why is it to hard to be hard-hearted to someone whom you are really close with. and now i really dont care if that person see this or not but im just really unhappy and really really angry and irritated at times. the split personalities is really getting on my nerves. why cant we be just like normal good friends anymore. this is ridiculous. why cant things be like in the past. your this new attitude towards everything now is not making anyone happy at all. and i dont know whether you are happy or not. because i feel for myself and you as a friend and i really hope that things would change for the better i really do. as harsh as i might sound and act i really hope that as your friend, i wan to see you standing back up again. and yes i whine and complain like a bitch but thats because im really fucking unhappy. you can say that im not understanding and yes, i dont know how you feel in your situation right now but you have so many friends around you that you can confide in and talk to. might not be me and lie if i say im not unhappy but at least if you talk to other friends you might just feel better. it sucks seeing you like these now. friends around you want to see you being back to yourself.

and i also want to whine because of how stale dota is now, plus all my can-talk-cock friends is all happily sleeping now or disappear offline to somewhere. and games in my computer is all getting stale. why cant the game left 4 dead be as easier to download and install. well i haven try but i just get sick of fellow downloaders whining away at how they cant play the game blah blah. and i just dont feel like trying at all.

im totally skipping school tomorrow because i want to spend time with my baby. and anyway school for me is kinda boring already. i guess im sick of sitting through 3 hours of lecture doing nothing productive except the usual bonding session my clique would do. plus the other projects are piling up and i just dont feel like doing at all. today spent the day doing econs and enough is enough. the only good thing today is the money that my parent just passed me.

i really should be sleeping now. but i know i cant sleep. and damn my parent's room tv just broke down and they happily shifted my tv to their room, i dont know how long is this arrangement gonna last because i totally need a tv in my room, regardless of how often the tv is being used by me. i just dont care.

being a student really sucks because you have all the time in the world as compare to working adults but the thing that student are lacking now is spending power, you know, money money money? yeah right. having all the time in the world yet without spending power is meaningless. theres so much things to be bought and shop and dine but there's aint nothing i can do with the lots atime on my hands right now. ok i dont really have time because of the projects but i cant be bother. what the hell is wrong with the school anyway. schooling for jsut 2 weeks and projects deadline is coming to us so close. it sucks.

ok. i think i feel a little bit better. knowing that i let shit out and i just fill my blog with 1 more whiny post. i am feeling so much better.

and by the wayone of my friend shiao an came up with this quote herself - 人们相遇是为了说"再见", 不管你愿不愿意... basically in english it means, people meet anyone just to say goodbye ultimately. isnt it true? how true because im totally feeling it now. im not going to go voer my post because i know im going to have alot of typos and grammatic mistakes. too long to spell proof anyway.